... It's my Birthday too!
My birthday is in a few days. I'll be 31 and I feel old. Remember when you were young and birthdays were so exciting and awesome?! I remember what a huge deal it was to hit the big 1-0, double digits! And it was SO LONG to wait in between birthdays. Now it's like, "What the fuck? Didn't we just do this?"
I was dreading turning 30, but once it happened, it was no big whoop. I think the problem is that I feel like I haven't accomplished anything, at least nothing that I feel is significant enough to count. I have been feeling an increased sense of urgency lately to get a move on and do all the things I want to do. But I'm not old old yet, and I don't have (or am at least not aware of) any terminal illnesses, so what's my problem?
I've been spending a lot of time reading and thinking about Atheism and Humanism lately, so maybe that's it (I'm a Humanist). This is the time we have, right now, and there is nothing else. There is only going to be so many days until my body and mind start to degenerate, and then I'll have to instigate some sort of Anarchist Revolution to compensate for all the missed chances I could have taken in my life. Who am I kidding? I am not organized enough to pull off something like that. The pamphlet distribution alone would be a nightmare! And, I might add, a waste of paper. I mean, sure, many people will be killed, and life as we know it will be extinguished, but we shouldn't take it out on the trees!
So, I guess I need to start working harder to accomplish my goals, as seemingly impossible as they may be. Maybe then I'll be able to look back at my life and think, "At least I tried, Dammit," before I hit the send all button on my (non-tree murdering) email with my instructions on toppling the government. Here's a thought: I bet by the time I'm really old, we'll be able to send emails and stuff straight from a chip implanted in our brains! And there should also be jet packs. I've been waiting so long for a fucking jet pack, it's not even funny.
Ahaha...the idea of initiating some sort of revolution goes through my mind a lot lately as well~
ReplyDeleteI'd like mine to be as successful as the Chinese cultural revolution. What was successful about the Chinese cultural revolution, you ask?
Well, they had uniforms.
I like uniforms.
It is easy to compare ourselves to others and feel that we have not accomplished enough or that we are not good enough. This is simply not true. The only time we have is now, now, now, now. The rest of it is all in our monkey mind.
ReplyDeleteAsk your angels for help with the rest of it. They'll let you know that they are around, that they are absolutely aware of what is going on with your life and there to help you. All you need to do is ask them.
With much love, your anonymous friend and great supporter!